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Dear former friends.

I have not always been the greatest friend to you. Often times I seemed more like some monstrous nightmare that somehow managed its way into your life as something harmless and non threatening. And other times my cruel and narcissistic behavior seemed to make me inhuman. We'll here I am now, defeated and without purpose. You have won your battle and I have suffered my greatest loss.
Friendship is not something I can ever hope to regain. I've been given too many attempts to amend things but I always seem to have abused those second, and even third chances I was given. Some of you have been able to move on but for me it is a much harder task. Too many lives I've ruined have payed their heavy toll on my mind, body, and spirit and I cannot hope to have that weight lifted. So I will do what I can.

Amo/Vyen: Words cannot express how happy I was when I met you and was brought into your wonderful role play circle. The plots were exciting and it felt very good to be involved in something so large. I loved the world you created to exist alongside so many others and it was an honor to have been apart of it.

Marius: I was always afraid to speak to you because you had such powerful and detailed characters and you portrayed them beautifully in your art. I guess I was afraid to approach you because I felt I couldn't live up to your expectations. Regardless though I enjoyed what rp we had and I only wished it could have lasted longer.

Sylaess: You were always kind and forgiving despite the hell I created near the end. You introduced me to new music and always tried to include me in rp. Words cannot express how grateful I am to have had you as a friend.

Nevenia/Rachel: You always tried to see everyone's side without leaning in favor towards one side in particular. That is truly a rare and welcome ability for any friendly relationship and it's one I wished I had. You even tried to mediate arguments and calm tensions no matter how bad the outcome seemed. Don't ever change that.

Jidane: To have become friends with you was almost like a dream that I was afraid to wake up from. But my own selfish ways turned it into a nightmare. You were a great artist that I had hoped to aspire to be like one day and an even greater friend that I did not deserve in the end. I never wanted to push you to do something out of the norm in what little rp we had together but I always felt like I was doing something wrong to agitate you. Regardless I enjoyed our skype talks when we both felt up to chit chatting over a call.

Starshippain/Aldryn: I realize that my harsh actions against others upset you and I was too late to stop myself from harming our friendship even further. My headstrong beliefs were fueld by others acting In unison and it cost me a friend I enjoyed rping with on guild wars. You were always honest about your feelings over my actions and I did not see the warning signs of our inevitably doomed relationship. I only wish I could have done more to see it.

Yumi: it was a lot of fun to play a villain alongside your knight character. I enjoyed what little interactions that Sumi/Phel had with the Knight and your concepts are truly breathtaking. I only wish I got to spend more time rping with you.

Vesta: I remember when I first got to meet you in FFXIV. I'm glad that I got to know you and wasn't pushed away like some other people who had probably confronted you before hand. Regardless I'm happy that you and Amo are friends again. I'm just sad that our friendship ended with me making a fool of myself.

Roxen: I had fun with our "Scrawny and The Beast" role play we had going. It's sad though that we won't be able to complete it and find out what happens in the end. I'm sorry that we occasionally butted heads a lot and in turn ruined what friendly relationship we had.

To all my other former friends: For what it's worth, though probably meaningless; I'm sorry for the ways I have treated each and everyone of you. I know I've already tarnished my reputation beyond repair and that all I can offer is a thank you for the good times we had and shared.

I doubt this message will reach most of you, but if it does, I'm sorry for all the damage I've caused. Nothing can replace and mend the things I have broken and it's something I'm going to have to learn to live with until the day I die as best as I can.

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:iconthesphinx:
TheSphinx Feb 15, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you for faving my [Red Light 2047] :)
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:iconravij:
Ravij Feb 15, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem! It's a marvelous piece!
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:iconthesphinx:
TheSphinx Feb 15, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks! :happy: 
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dropkicktyphoon Feb 12, 2014  New member Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch, cynibuddy.

(That wasn't clever rofl I'm not one of the cool kids...)
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Ravij Feb 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
*pats on the back* That's alright.. we can be rejects together. Taking on the world with brutal hypocrisy one idiot at a time.
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Sayetu Feb 8, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
dude. that webcam. rofl
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Ravij Feb 9, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Something else that's funny is when he catches it; look at the guys behind him acting like they gonna catch that ball. It's a big Nope.
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Ravij Feb 9, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I know right?
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:iconcakeupstudio:
thanks for faving my cookies :dance:
and I need that alam clock!
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Ravij Jan 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Np! they look delicious! And yes; this alarm clock is excellent!
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penta-zel Jan 15, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
much thanks for keeping your peepers on me. ^////////^
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Ravij Jan 16, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Not a problem! I thought I already had you watched and then saw I didn't so I quickly corrected that!
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penta-zel Jan 16, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i think you already did over on Y!gallery, but not here. it is easy to miss watching each other at both places. i am glad we managed to catch up on both ends though. ^^
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DjFawkx Jan 5, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Thank for the :iconllamazplz:
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Ravij Jan 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
No prob.
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Kisauchiha123 Jan 4, 2014  Student Artist
thanx for the llama Hug 
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Ravij Jan 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Not a problem.
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Kisauchiha123 Jan 7, 2014  Student Artist
=)
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Genesistm123 Jan 4, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the lama badge!
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Ravij Jan 4, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem.
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penta-zel Dec 20, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thankies for the fave! i had no idea so many people would enjoy these.  ^////////^
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Ravij Dec 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem! That are really good! It's almost like an alphabet to another language! :> I was also going to ask you if you DO do alphabets for other languages. XD
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penta-zel Dec 20, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i feel so flattered knowing they are so formal looking. i really need to learn to except complements better. >/////////////////////>
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Ravij Dec 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
*showers with complements* I'd totally commission you to write the alphabet for a few made up languages I have if you do commissions! XD
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Amaipetisu Oct 11, 2013   Digital Artist
Hey, thanks for the cake and for being so nice! *^^* <3
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